today i'm on leave. cuz not feeling well. these few days already coughin den yest feel weak and no strength. dunno y these few days i keep having slping problems. since sat, i have been tossing and turning ard, trying very hard to get to slp. when i finally get to slp, i will start to dream and wake up by 5am! it's a routine man. sounds abit eerie hor? haha.. ya.. dunno y man.. my fren ask me is there something bothering me? erm.. seriously, mayb abit bah.. but oso dunno wat exactly it is. think too much.. haha.. my forte. haha..

hrm.. last week, i get to know of some things. have alot of feelings stirring up.. suddenly really feel very negative in relationships. one moment, e other party can promise u e stars in e sky and e next moment, they can just turn back their words. really very sad lo.. one moment they can be how loving and envy by others, e other moment they are not tgt. how can e other party take it? it's not any1's fault, i understand, cannot blame any1 either. my confidence has been affected. can say quite affected lah. haha.. hopefully i can find back e trust in love soon. haha.. mayb must read e annie's (伊能静) book. i saw it in kang xi lai le. haha..

ending le.. take care every1. bye.

today is a sunday! yups. a day for me to rest. so tired. this week, most of my time is occupied by my work. rushing things now.. hai~ din go out at all this week! feel so sian.. my mind want to go out but my body say no. haha..

these few days, some things happen and make me feel that i'm a very 小心眼的人. haha.. i take some things very seriously and i'm very particular abt that. i oso wish i'm not like that cuz i will get pissed off easily.

hopefully a brand new week will be good for me. take care

rg:
take care k? smile more :)

[update]

found this in friendster. sophia send me de. i find it damn true. haha..

Guys, realize that the girl holding onto u is
PERFECT in their own special way.

The way she laughs..
The way she sleeps..
The way she loves you..
The way she tries to please you...

Always remember that.

She can always walk away and up,
getting someone else who can love her
more.

For all you know,
there is someone out there wooing her
already,
but she is rejecting,
a maybe perfect love for her..

There might also be someone out there..
who is willing to love her more than you
are loving
her now,
fufill her every need and love her as
much as she
loves you.

Understand that.

Girls have a huge guilty concience.
...imagine this, guys.
When you are holding her today...
and then you cheat on her by hugging
and kissing
another gal.
and then you run back to her...
and u do the same....
but you see love in her eyes...
What do you think?
Do you feel the hurt?
Can you feel the guilt?

She loves you not because you are
good looking,
have money,
buy her things,
make her parents happy,
or that you have a car.

She loves you for who you are.
Your every touch, every word you say, everything
you do.

Guys.
Cherish and appreciate your girl.
Don't break her fragile heart.
She is the only one who can love you that way.
You won't wanna regret letting go of that special
girl you have.
For everything she has done for you, the least
you
can do is to give her unconditional love as she
has given to you.

long time nv update le. lazy.. hehe

work is rather busy. rushing changes blah blah.. feeling very emotional this few days. find myself very slow in thinking. there was a period of time where i think, am i suitable in IT line? but if dun do IT i oso dunno so wat le.

last sat, went out with e T20s. went k with them.. very happy. hehe.. i always enjoy singing k with them.. so nice.. haha.. later on, gr joined us for a movie - a season for love. another touching korean show. it's quite sad lah.. but i din cry.. haha.. dunno i heartless or wat leh. but my conclusion is movie i wont cry cuz it's 2 hrs only. mayb if it's a drama series den i will. haha.. after that, went drinking with them. in e end, only left me, sophia, mei mei and eroy. i prefer small gropus chilling actually. i enjoy e chilling session with e gentle wind blowing, e quietness and of cuz e additional fireworks. it's so beautiful.

received an sms from glen yest. he say he reach thailand le. haha.. after like 2 weeks den he reach there. omg.. if it's me, i sure cant tahan one. haha.. oh ya.. yest i managed to tok to e very long nv see MIA person of e T20s. yes, it's ah seow. haha.. he told me he's in combat medic now. hope to meet up with him soon.

i dunno whether i got fat anot leh. i'm so scare of getting fat. haha.. i try to slim down le leh. i dun eat supper and my intake has decreased. but dunno y my stomach is still so big my arms are so fat. however, my watch very loose le wor. haha.. weird hor. wanna go swim but then my fren not free. hope to go next week man.. if not really fat until cannot make it.

dunno today going out anot. ren say wanna meet but he nv tell me e time yet. shld wait for his msg. i miss them so much.. it's been so long since we meet. almost a month le.

oh ya, i wanna thank lester. cuz he made me laugh like a retard in e office that day when i'm feeling low. haha.. thanks les. =)

alot of frens ard me going to enrol uni this year. i got 6 frens enrolling. but then up til yest, only 1 enrolled already. haha. feel abit gan jiong for them. cuz e deadline is on mon. hope they can enrol in time. seriously, i feel abit pressurized cuz all of them are pursing studies. it's like only left me. haha..

take care, every1